Why Were Your Eyes So Deep?

A story of yearning for a long-gone love

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I can see how despicable it is to wage war in the land that belongs to someone else. To be quite honest, it’s hard for me not to recognize the signs of my own stupidity in believing my commander’s promises. Now there’s no need to prove anything to anyone, but back then, I needed to show I was a man — a real man.

My parents didn’t have money to send me through college, the opportunities I could ever get in my small town were limited, and there was a hidden part of me that just didn’t want to spend the rest of my life buried in there, going through the motions of a world I had never wanted to be a part of.

So I chose the life of a soldier.

Stupidest decision I’ve ever made.

With the passing of time, it’s easier to see why I wanted to do it. But that still doesn’t make it any less wrong.

You see, that was the first time in my life I left my hometown, and all of a sudden the doors to the world opened up in front of me. I was going from new place to new place, meeting new people, touching a whole new world that was alien to me. The price I had to pay was only saying “Yes, Sir.”

Well, that and selling my innocence.