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How I Don’t Feel Awkward and Lonely Anymore
Disclaimer: These are my life experiences and things I learned from them. These insights will help you, so stay tuned and keep reading. There’ll be more blogs like this in the next few months. Hopefully, it’ll be helpful to those reading.
I’m a simple guy. I wake up in the morning, get ready, listen to music, have breakfast, get dressed, and go to work.
This is me now. However, it wasn’t me just four years ago. I felt like shit then, like a guinea pig trapped in a glass jar, monitored and experimented on by my doctors.
I’m better now and doing quite well. A lot better than 2020.
So, what made me this way—a subject for my doctors, on a ton of medicines, my family convinced that I was sick. I wasn’t sick; I was sad. Why?
Well, since I’ve been a little boy, I felt awkward. Like an outsider, I was watching others helplessly, trying to connect, only to fail. Fall seven times, get up eight. Only to fall again.
Do you know what it feels like? To be a kid who hated touch? To feel uncomfortable when your mother tries to hug you, play with you, or show you some affection? The more she tried, the more uncomfortable I felt. I used to hate going on rides on someone’s shoulders, to be picked up and sit on someone’s lap.
