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I Finally Forgave My Abusive Ex
Because That Was What My Traumatized Body Needed
Never in a million years did I ever believe I would forgive my abusive ex. And that’s because I had reached for indifference over the past few years. I’ve always struggled with the concept of forgiveness because I deemed it unnecessary when you have the neutral act of indifference.
Indifference to me meant zero energy moving towards people who have caused you harm…but now I see…zero energy also meant stagnant energy trapped in my body,
A few weeks ago, I found myself in the middle of the woods, alone, walking my boyfriend’s dog, entangled among the trees, the damps grass, the sky, and the sunlight shining on my face, and then it happened.
I firmly spoke the words out loud, “I forgive you.”
This moment was years in the making. It was an accumulation of years of CBT therapy, hypnotherapy, EMDR, somatic experiencing, and solo travels across Europe. One healing modality triggered the next as my body was slowly opening up to this deeper level of release.
It was a release of trauma energy stuck in my body. Forgiveness was a profound act of somatic experiencing I never knew I needed until I met Megan.
