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Dirty realism, grunge lit, creative confessions, spec fic, and assorted literary atrocities.

Unfit for Heaven

1 min readMar 11, 2024

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A picture of a couple holding hands in front of a graffiti wall with the word “paradise” in huge brown letters on a background of bright colors.
Photo by Masha Zubareva

A new game — hippocampus kaleidoscope. No rules, no liability wavier. The frenetic foisted fractals fog my brain. Pieces of the puzzle rearranged to baffle, to crack the firm ground under my feet. To liquefy my mind. To reshape. To fit into your fiction.

You decree truths like some cutthroat deity. Spelled in blood-dripping scarlet, my original sin screams my name on every corner. I’m a broken record that choked on the apple in the dried-out paradise. The chief of the hype heaven grants lobotomy tickets to re-enter.

I warm my lacerated memories with my smeared breath through the ice age of desolation. To survive the reality-riving blitz. To own my voice despite the doubt-crushed cords. To preserve my space, my self through the storm of you.

© Masha Zubareva 2024

My sincere gratitude to Scuzzbucket and its editors for providing space to pour out my mind.

Scuzzbucket
Scuzzbucket

Published in Scuzzbucket

Dirty realism, grunge lit, creative confessions, spec fic, and assorted literary atrocities.

Masha Zubareva
Masha Zubareva

Written by Masha Zubareva

An enthusiast diver of my mind’s depths