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The Tale of Finding Myself in This Journey
Twin Flame — Is That Really You?
About four years ago, halfway through 2020, I found myself in a position remarkably similar to where I am now. My ex-boyfriend reached out to me after I congratulated him on his work anniversary in the police force. Meanwhile, the same presidential candidates were at each other’s throats during their campaigns in the United States, and the Kansas City Chiefs had just defeated the San Francisco 49ers at the Super Bowl. Thinking about it now feels like déjà vu.
At that time, I had been engaged to my now-husband for at least three years, but I chose not to reveal that to my ex during our conversation. Figuratively speaking, I wanted to hang up a sign that said, “My relationship is complicated,” while acting like my ex had lost one heck of a great person in his life. Clearly, I wasn’t thinking straight — deep down, all I wanted was some form of revenge against him.
I remember delving into research about twin flames, pouring my heart into the idea that this connection must be why he meant so much to me. Maybe, I thought, he wanted to come back into my life. At one point, I convinced myself that I had been the “TF chaser” all along. After all, it had been at least 15 years since we last reconnected following our bad breakup.
