What Causes My Depression?

I’m Feeling Low And I Want To Know Why!

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This is the first time I’ve felt truly down in a few months. I’ve done so well, have achieved so much — and yet, I have still found myself in the one place I try to avoid.

Depression

This is frustrating, as it always is when you’ve recently experienced the highs. Early periods of depression were horrific because they were horrific. After being diagnosed and making my way through my recovery the depressive lows felt horrific because they are still horrific, but they come with the added element of knowing what you have lost.

It’s better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.

This is very much the “loved and lost” part, but it is definitely no better. The ‘love’ representing my good days, the ‘lost’ representing the lows.

So why now?

Well, I’m not certain, you never can be with an illness of the mind. Your judgement is directly affected by the thing it’s trying to judge. However, as I sit here typing, trying to make sense of this depressive low I have noticed the following triggers:

1. Poor sleep — I’m on a really bad run of sleep, and the more tired I get, the more frustrated and low I feel. Lacking sleep strips me of any resilience I…