Mother, There’s a Monster Inside My Head
do I ever deserve to be saved?
How does it feel to be let down by someone you once saw as your hero?
Mother, there’s a monster inside my head, and it’s growing bigger and bigger with every day you don’t see me.
I long for the days when the monster was just under my bed, not lurking in my mind. I long for the softness of my blanket and the comfort my pillow brings every night.
Things I missed everytime, how can I sleep peacefully if my pillow were still wet from the tears last night. How can I be at peace if my blanket were torn from my previous burst out, mother, where were you all this time.
I can’t help but to wonder of why am I facing the consequences of something I never did.
Questions filled my mind as tears filled my eyes,and suddenly aches filled my heart. I hold my grip trying to hold myself together, but eventually, I learned to let it go.
Destroy it just like how they destroyed you.
My head spun with emotions,here it is again, the monsters here, shyla.
“ forgive me. ” Words I had given up on hearing.
My heart broke into a million pieces when I heard my mother’s voice. She’s here, I’m going to take care of you, sweetie. But suddenly, why does it feel more like a nightmare than the dream I’ve craved for years?
Her gentle hand gave warmth to my burning soul, making me want to finally give up.
Her voice shut the voices inside my head, whispering to end my suffers. Her voice silenced the whispers in my head, urging me to end my suffering.
Just when I thought I would be saved, I noticed the lamp starting to look strange.
And that’s when it dawned on me. You never intended to save me. After all, why would the destroyer ever rescue what she’s already torn apart?
Villains and superheroes never get along together.
