Happy Mother’s Day to the Daughters of a Narcissistic Mother
It’s a hard day and I understand.
So here I sit with warring emotions on this day. I should be spending time with my mother.
If only We had that kind of relationship. I have always been the one pushing my feelings down for the important days.
To give my mom a Happy Mother’s Day or A Happy Birthday.
This year though she went silent treatment again. In past years a week would go by and I would call her and apologize.
Even if she hurt me. It was always me who made the first move.
This time I tried my best to tell her my feelings and once again she made excuses.
I learned this is not healthy behavior. It was all I knew for so long. So here We are. It’s not a choice I ever wanted to make.
It’s been close to 4 weeks since We have talked. All of this Mother’s day stuff is making me feel guilty. I know though my truth.
I didn’t deserve Narcissistic abuse, favoritism, silent treatment used as a weapon, verbal abuse, and physical abuse.
All I ever wanted was a Mom to Love me and to listen. We all don’t get this though.
To All the Daughters on this day who are going NC by their choice or your Mom’s. I understand your conflicting emotions.
We all don’t have loving relationships with our mothers.
It’s been the hardest thing to not pick up that phone on this day. We have to go NC for sanity if they don’t want to listen.
We deserve to be happy. We deserve to have a loving and understanding Mom.
I wished people would not think harshly of us. We don’t make this decision lightly nor do We want to do it.
We just get tired of the emotional nonsense.
I understand the emotional rollercoaster today. I’m going through it myself.
We deserved so much more than what we get.
All we can do is keep in our mind why We need to do this. We deserve Love and understanding.
We deserve a parent who will listen.
So to you Daughters I understand you the most and I want to give you a hug . I understand the emotions you are going through today. We will get through it like We have went through hard things before.
With much love x
