Turning 40 Is on the Horizon

And I’m ready for a new me

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I’m turning 40 in June 2025. Recently, this has brought on a wave of emotions as I reflect on my life — the decisions I’ve made, the achievements I’ve accomplished, and the achievements I haven’t. Where do I want to be in 10 years? Am I satisfied with where I am now?

I find myself waking up from dreams about getting older, analysing all that I’ve done and why I didn’t do what I should have done a decade ago. Life is so cruel because you can’t just turn the clocks back and do the things you wished you had. You have to continue trudging forward on the journey you’re on right now.

Right now, I can change my trajectory. The problem is that I don’t know how.

I’m grateful for the husband I have and the beautiful little boy that I’m a full-time mother to.

But there are things I want to achieve, such as completing my master’s degree, which I didn’t do because I was too busy drowning in my own self-doubt and feeling rubbish about myself in my 20s. Yes, I have spent most of my life feeling lost and confused, lacking in confidence, and constantly going round and round in circles. I wonder if others feel like me.

Now I see the new year is just around the corner, and I haven’t achieved all that I wanted to achieve: a healthier body…