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Master Your Demons
A reminder that you are in the driver’s seat.
The risk of failure increases when our mental state advances. The higher we climb the farther we have to fall. Every turn we make either in society or individually causes a backlash. Even with the best intentions lines can still be crossed and cause hurt. The test of life doesn’t care how much you accomplished or what bad you have done previously. The obstacles we conquer can always reset to face us again. How are we to combat the ongoing struggle when it seems like no one else is on our side.
When I was attending high school it felt as if my mind didn’t know how to handle much. I was relatively happy and content, but it was the invisible possibilities that got to me. I would lay in bed paralyzed by the fear of not making it past where I was. I felt so out of control my brain would conjure up these games I had to participate in, or there would be consequences. If I didn’t count to 3 at least 3 times, something would happen to my family. If I didn’t guess something right I was going to have a bad day. It started at night then it travelled to broad daylight. It seemed as though there was no escaping the horror of my mental state causing a division within itself. Of course I told no one about it, and it didn’t happen everyday. For a while I thought it was normal to have these ongoing fights with myself. At the…
