About Me — Fern L. Beuon

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Making healing happen through the cathartic power of storytelling

Hello!

I’m a writer, thinker, and a student of life. I live & breathe personal growth, self-awareness, self-love, self-healing, and authenticity.

“Fern” is my pen name. I was brainstorming for a suitable pen name (This was tough!), and came across “Fern”. I Googled the meaning of the name “Fern”, and after reading through the representations of this name in various cultures, I knew I had found my pen name. I will share the meaning of my pen name as I go along.

I’m afraid

I want to tell you a secret. I had been terrified. I am afraid to show my authentic self to the world all my life. I am afraid to speak up. I am afraid to have my voice heard. I am this way solely because of this reason: I fear the sting of rejection and judgment. Who wants to go through the excruciating experience of being rejected and judged? I don’t.

I also hear critical little voices in my heart, taunting me every chance they get, “How would they think of me if they knew I did this or that, or have gone through this?! They’d think so lowly of me like I’m scum, like I’m such a pathetic creature… How would they think of me if they knew I had such thoughts and desires?! It’s unspeakable. It’s too much for the world. I’m too much.”