Trauma | Relationships | Spirituality

Finally Angry

The most disrespected person in America is the Black woman.

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I am not okay.

I have mastered turning my harrowing experiences and lessons into something bigger than myself. To consume is to heal yourself. I have been given this gift at a spiritual, soul, and human level to take waste matter and turn it into an immaculately, divinely, and illogically beautiful dish ready for friends, family, and readers to consume. I know God exists outside and inside of my mind, body, spirit, and DNA because ain’t no way one human could have survived the level of trauma I have and still be beautiful enough to exist, let people in, love, frame words, gather understanding, and deliver it in a way that is easy for others to digest. It is too much to bear. I should not be okay.

The culmination of the emotional weight placed on me as a Jesus-following spirit, a human, a Black person in America, a Black woman in America, a single mother, and a person who endured abuse regularly on a societal…